Another Day: No Dollars

Fa la la. Went to a baby shower
today for someone who had waited soooooo long to carry a
pregnancy to term. It was lovely & I am so happy for her.
It did stir up twinges of jealously though. I wouldn't change
my children for anything. I love them very much and am so
thankful for them coming into my life and so thankful for having
a family to love. I do (at times) feel the longing to experience
pregnancy and birth. I wonder what it would be like to have my
very own child. A life growing inside of me. The chances of that
happening are next to nothing and that makes me sad at times.

Don't get me wrong. I love my kids.
They are the answer to prayers. They love me and I love them. I
have dedicated my life to raising them to be outstanding, productive
people. They are loving, kind, wonderful! I wonder if that will ever
go away?

Came home early from work today.
My husband isn't feeling well so I thought I'd come home &
wrangle kids for him. He's got a cold & the crud. Men can
be wimps when they are ill. He's actually done pretty well so
far. I know he feels like crap. What a bad time to get sick
though...we didn't get anything done around the house this
weekend because his sister was here and we certainly aren't
getting anything done here today. It is suppossed to snow
tonight. I need to pack the summer close & get out the
winter clothes. Good Lord...there is sooooooooo much to
do. AAACK!!!! Well, enough for now. Just rambling with
no real point.

Beautiful Montana Rainbow outside our back door.

October 2, 2005: Quiet Sunday

Alright. The weekend is almost over. Why you ask? Because my
sister-in-law was here for the weekend. All in all it went well
enough, but I'm still glad she has left the building. Man, I
had no idea what a stress family can be on a marriage. My
husband and I totally got into it over her coming to town &
staying at our house.

You see, she isn't very nice. She's certainly not nice to me
& she is not nice to my husband. She only calls when she needs
something. I swore I was done subjecting myself to her. Apparently
my husband didn't think I was serious. He certainly didn't take me
saying no well. My mom called and said, "you aren't going to win
this one...just walk in & say your sorry & let her stay". So
that is what I did.

I survived much to my chagrin. We did score some good stuff though
with her visit. She was in town to clean out the shed at the house
she is now renting out. We were able to take the stuff she couldn't
take back to GF with her. So...we made a haul. And when you live
paycheck to paycheck you take any help you can get! Let me hear an
AMEN!

Today, the husband was sick so we mostly sat around and watched
football. I did do laundry & run to the grocery store. Other
than that...it was just a quiet Sunday. The kind of Sunday I like
the most.

The beginning

Ok, I'm going to give this a whirl.
I'm just trying to find a way to record my thoughts on my life,
on others' lives, on the world. I won't stick to any one
particular issue. I think I'll just rant. If it is
entertaining....great. If it isn't....it will still serve a
puprose.